How can I turn back, O God?
How can I ask forgiveness from the people I’ve hurt?
How can I expect people to forgive me?
Sometimes I feel like an idiot–a stray word or unreflected actions damages relationships.
Some days I feel like I can’t try any harder;
Some days I feel like I can’t try any more
When self-reflection causes me to forget those around me,
When psychoanalysis causes me to keep people at arm’s lengths,
When my own agenda is more important than showing your love,
Maybe I can’t turn back–
I can’t re-choose certain choices–
I live with the consequences even though I believe you have forgiven me.
Help me forgive myself.